Today, I feel weak. Today I feel as though the school year is the web, and I am the fly entrapped in it. Believe it or not, it has not even been a month since it has started, and I have already accomplished to get my first C- on my pre-calculus test. Its the same thing everyday. I wake up. My mother drives me to school. I write, read, and listen. I go home. I write, read, listen, BUT OH! A TWIST! I eat also. Being that eating is a neccesisty of life. Bumped in hallways. My so called “peers” slurring like sailors. Girls who are a little “too proud” of their bodies, and boys who believe they are the alpha of their pact of inmaturity surround me like I am standing in a meadow of dandilions. To realize this is a daily reoccurance which cannot be stopped. Well, I suppose the bright side to all of this is being able to speak to a select few, have a meaningful conversation, interact with those who are willing to make everyday special. But like I said … a select few. Don’t get me wrong, I love everyday because I am one that appreciates every minute of everyday despite its never ending routine. It’s just that, can you really say it’s always “sweet”? Some things are just a bitter as unsweetened chocolate.
BE CONFIDENT. In what you say. In what you do. In what you decide. In what you eat. In what you cook! Anything, just have some confidence in yourself. Today I was speaking to an old friend, any her main concern was that she is “not good enough”. Well after a long conversation she finally exclaimed, “I am good enough for myself and that is what EVERYONE should realize!” , a true admirable epiphany don’t you think? IF YOUR NOT CONFIDENT IN YOURSELF, HOW DO YOU EXPECT ANYONE TO TRUST YOU? I mean cmon now, If I was your boss, and your job was to represent me, but you keep DOUBTING YOURSELF, how the HELL do YOU expect ME to TRUST YOU? but thats just one example. PRESENTING! ANOTHER EXAMPLE! Presenting something like a speech! If you are shy, timid, too soft spoken -i’m sure we have all witnessed something like that- most of use would react like “What the hell? GTFO” -hopefullly that is not just me. So go ahead, have your moment. I know I do. Have your “Im not good enough moment” but get over it. Move on! … now being OVERconfident is just another days discussion.. (:
Sometimes I forget that not everything lasts. Good things will come, but they will go. Everything in life is temporary … so cherish every minute of it.
How would you react if :
I told you I missed you.
I admit that being with you makes me feel stupid.
that I think you are out of my league.
that you are a great person.
that I like you..
Well, If I did nothing about it, I would never know now will I?